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Ayahuasca Long-Term Effects: Observations, Science, and How to Maximize the Benefits
When people search for information on ayahuasca, most sources focus on the immediate effects—the visions, the purging, the intensity of the ceremony. Yet the more important question is often overlooked: What are the long-term effects of ayahuasca on the body, mind, and spirit? Drawing from guiding over 1,000 participants in ceremony, combined with insights from recent peer-reviewed studies, this article looks at both anecdotal experiences and scientific evidence to paint a clear picture of what lasting impact ayahuasca may have on your life. Key takeaways Healing goes beyond the ceremony – With proper integration, ayahuasca can spark lasting growth in mental health, relationships, and life purpose. Emotional resilience increases – Many report long-term relief from anxiety, depression, and burnout, backed by scientific research from 2018 to 2025. A deeper sense of self emerges – Ayahuasca helps uncover intuition, self-trust, and authenticity—leading to more aligned decisions. Empathy and connection expand – Participants often feel more compassionate toward others, nature, and themselves, inspiring meaningful life shifts. Lasting change depends on integration – Supportive community, spiritual practices, and conscious life choices are key to sustaining the benefits. Table of Contents Table of Contents Table of Contents Frequently Asked Questions (2025) Does ayahuasca change you permanently? Many people who have taken ayahuasca report positive, long-term, life-altering changes. These often include greater emotional resilience, deeper empathy, and a renewed sense of purpose. Science supports this: a 2020 study published in Scientific Reports found that long-term ayahuasca users scored lower on depression and higher on measures of life quality and self-transcendence compared to non-users (Jiménez-Garrido et al., 2020). While the ceremony itself is temporary, the insights gained can stay with you for years — especially when supported by integration practices. Are there long-term effects of ayahuasca? Yes. Research suggests that ayahuasca’s physical side effects are usually short-lived and minor (vomiting, nausea, dizziness). In fact, only about 2.3% of users require medical attention for physical effects. The more significant long-term impact is on mental and emotional health. A 2018 study published in Frontiers in Pharmacology found that participants showed reduced depression and stress up to four weeks after ceremonies, along with increases in mindfulness and life satisfaction (Uthaug et al., 2018). Does ayahuasca change personality? Scientific studies indicate that ritual ayahuasca use can lead to measurable personality shifts. In particular, long-term users often show: Increases in Openness (creativity, curiosity, flexibility) Growth in Self-Transcendence (a trait linked to purpose and meaning) For example, a 2021 NIH-backed study reported that ayahuasca use was linked to higher Openness scores and greater self-transcendence after continuous practice (PMC8377499). This doesn’t mean you become a different person — rather, ayahuasca often helps uncover parts of yourself that were dormant or suppressed. What are the long-term benefits of ayahuasca? Cross-sectional studies have found that long-term ayahuasca drinkers tend to: Score higher on well-being and life purpose Perform better on executive functioning tasks (decision-making, focus) Show lower levels of psychopathology compared to non-psychedelic users A 2022 study in Frontiers in Pharmacology confirmed these findings, showing that long-term ayahuasca participants reported greater well-being, stronger life purpose, and lower psychopathology scores than non-users (Perkins et al., 2022). These benefits align with thousands of personal accounts of people feeling more balanced, more connected, and more authentic after ayahuasca. What are the long-term effects of ayahuasca on mental health? Many guests report reduced anxiety and depression symptoms, greater emotional resilience, and lasting improvements in self-awareness. Scientific research supports these outcomes: a 2018 study found that ayahuasca participants showed reduced depression and stress up to four weeks later, with increases in mindfulness and life satisfaction (Uthaug et al., 2018). However, outcomes depend on personal readiness, mental health history, and integration practices. Can ayahuasca cause lasting changes in the brain? Studies suggest ayahuasca may influence neuroplasticity, emotional regulation, and memory. This means the brain may become more flexible in how it processes experiences and emotions, which can support growth and healing. For example, a 2025 study showed that long-term ayahuasca users had preserved global cognition and improved memory function compared to non-users (Fonseca et al., 2025). Research is ongoing, but early results are promising. If you’d like to learn more about how ayahuasca affects the brain, you can read our full article here. Are the long-term effects of ayahuasca always positive? Not always. While many people experience healing, insight, and personal growth, others may face challenging integration periods or the resurfacing of unresolved emotions. The Global Ayahuasca Survey (2022) found that 55.9% of participants reported sub-acute or persistent mental health effects (positive or challenging). Most saw these as part of a beneficial integration process, though 12% sought professional support (Perkins et al., 2022). Proper preparation and support are key for navigating these outcomes. How long do the positive effects of ayahuasca last? Some benefits — like increased mindfulness, reduced anxiety, or a deeper sense of purpose — can last for months or even years. A 2020 study noted that long-term users continued to report higher life satisfaction and reduced depression compared to non-users (Jiménez-Garrido et al., 2020). The most noticeable benefits are often experienced within the first 28 days after ceremony, but continued integration practices (meditation, journaling, therapy) help sustain them long-term. Is ayahuasca safe to drink repeatedly over time? It depends on the individual. When approached with intention and in a safe ceremonial setting, repeated work with ayahuasca can be deeply beneficial. The key is giving yourself space between ceremonies so that insights can root into daily life. Drinking too often can lead to spiritual bypassing — using the medicine as an escape rather than integrating its lessons. If you’re wondering about finding the right balance, see our full guide: How Many Ayahuasca Ceremonies Do You Need? Does ayahuasca have any physical long-term side effects? For most people, there are no physical long-term side effects from drinking ayahuasca. Common physical effects like nausea, vomiting, and dizziness are short-lived and usually pass during or shortly after the ceremony. However, very frequent use may put strain on the liver due to
Spiritual ego after Ayahuasca – avoid these traps
Introduction: Ayahuasca, known for its profound and intense transformative power, can initiate deep shifts within individuals, often leading to significant personal and spiritual growth. However, during these profound changes, a subtle yet potentially limiting trap can emerge: the formation of a ‘spiritual ego.’ This phenomenon, while not often discussed, is an important aspect to consider for anyone on their spiritual journey, especially those who have experienced the depths of Ayahuasca. But what exactly is a spiritual ego? How can we recognize its presence in ourselves or others, and more importantly, why is it considered a limitation rather than a progression on the spiritual path? Addressing these questions is crucial to ensuring that our journey towards healing and growth doesn’t inadvertently lead us astray. In this exploration, we will dive into the nature of the spiritual ego, its signs and symptoms, the ways it can subtly undermine true spiritual growth, and strategies for recognizing and avoiding it in our own personal journeys. Key takeaways: Instead of using traditional status symbols the spiritual ego uses different measuring sticks. The underlying mechanism of the ego remains the same, about being right, defending one’s viewpoint, proving the other person wrong and trying to gain a sense of superiority (to cover up an internal sense of inadequacy) True spirutality is anchored in humility and gratitude and does need to convince its environment on how spiritual one is. Table of Contents What is the ego: Understanding the concept of ego is crucial before we delve into the notion of a ‘spiritual ego,’ particularly in the context of Ayahuasca and spiritual transformation. The ego, as previously discussed in the blog on ‘Ego Death,’ has a variety of interpretations but often refers to the part of us that craves affirmation and superiority, masking deeper insecurities or feelings of inadequacy. In many Western cultures, the ego often manifests through material accomplishments and comparisons: who has the most luxurious car, the most impressive house, or the most attractive partner. These external symbols become measures of self-worth, driving a desire to appear superior in the eyes of others (in order to mask an inner feeling of unworthiness). However, following an Ayahuasca experience, a person’s priorities may shift profoundly. The realization might dawn that material wealth isn’t the ultimate yardstick of life’s value. Yet, this newfound understanding doesn’t automatically dissolve the underlying mechanisms of the ego. The need for validation and a sense of superiority can stubbornly persist, only now it may express itself in a different guise. This is where the spiritual ego comes into play. Post-Ayahuasca, as individuals reassess their values and what they consider important, there’s a risk of substituting traditional status symbols with more ‘spiritual’ ones. Instead of competing over material possessions, people might begin to measure their worth by: Number of ceremonies: Boasting about the number of Ayahuasca ceremonies one has participated in, as if it were a badge of honor or spiritual maturity. Number of cups: Some might take pride in the amount of Ayahuasca they consume during ceremonies, equating higher doses with greater spiritual prowess. Minimalism as Superiority: Contrarily, there can be a sense of superiority in needing fewer ceremonies to achieve insights, implying a more ‘advanced’ spiritual state. Meditation Practices: Pride in the frequency or duration of meditation practices can also be a sign, suggesting a belief that more meditation equates to higher spiritual standing. Especially the notion that one is more advanced because one meditates more. Environmental Consciousness: Using one’s carbon footprint or eco-friendly habits as a means to feel superior to others veers into the territory of spiritual ego. Rejecting Mainstream Culture: A sense of pride in not participating in the ‘rat race’ or not conforming to mainstream news and culture, implying a sense of awakening or enlightenment that others lack. These are just a few examples, and there are undoubtedly many more ways in which a spiritual ego can manifest. The ego, still operating from a place of needing to feel superior, merely shifts its focus from the material to the spiritual realm. Understanding this subtle transition is key to recognizing and addressing the emergence of a spiritual ego in our journey of personal and spiritual growth. Must read Blog: Ayahuasca ego death – reset your current identity The underlying mechanism Peeling back the layers to understand the truth behind such behaviors reveals a fundamental aspect of the ego: its tendency to create separation and a sense of superiority. Taking the example of environmental consciousness, while it is undoubtedly beneficial and important for the health of our planet, the moment it transforms into a means of feeling superior to others, its essence becomes distorted. This sense of superiority, of setting oneself apart as more aware or more enlightened, is a classic trait of the ego at work. The ego thrives on distinction and separation. In the spiritual context, especially in teachings echoed in Ayahuasca experiences, the emphasis is often on the interconnectedness of all beings, the dissolution of the illusion of separateness. When environmental consciousness—or any other commendable quality or practice—becomes a yardstick to measure oneself against others, it feeds into the ego’s divisive nature. This not only contradicts the spirit of oneness but also hinders genuine personal and spiritual growth. It creates a barrier, an ‘us versus them’ mentality, which is counterproductive to the very essence of most spiritual paths that advocate for unity, compassion, and understanding. Recognizing this tendency is crucial in avoiding the pitfalls of the spiritual ego. It’s about embracing positive practices and beliefs not as tools for self-aggrandizement, but as expressions of a deeper understanding of our interconnectedness and shared journey towards a better world. This approach fosters a true spirit of oneness, moving beyond the ego’s divisive tendencies. The spiritual ego is obvious to everybody around it and annoying The impact of a spiritual ego on one’s social environment is often quite stark and generally not well-received. Typically, everyone except the individual with the spiritual ego can see its effects, and it
Why some people don’t change, even after countless Ayahuasca ceremonies?
Ayahuasca has been known as a catalyst for profound transformation, a bridge to deeper self-awareness and healing. But what happens when that bridge seems to lead nowhere for some individuals? Despite numerous encounters with this powerful medicine, a few may find themselves stuck to the same spot, as if transformation is a distant, flickering mirage. What stands between them and the change they seek? Identifying these roadblocks is the first step toward ensuring you don’t find yourself in a similar standstill. In this exploration, we’ll delve into the intricacies of personal change, the possible reasons for stagnation, and strategies to ensure your journey with Ayahuasca leads to the growth and evolution you’re aspiring to. Key takeaways: Change takes time, sometimes things are happening on the inside of a person that is not yet noticeable to people from the outside. It is an individual journey and there is no rule on home many Ayahuasca ceremonies you are supposed to do (or not do). It is important to implement daily, focused and continuous action in order for the internal shifts to become experienced reality. Table of Contents Difficult to have an objective view Diving deep into personal growth often requires us to confront issues from every conceivable angle, and when it comes to Ayahuasca, this process is no exception. Consider the story of a friend of mine—someone I hold in high esteem—who isn’t a guide but a frequent participant in ceremonies. To some, his extensive engagement with Ayahuasca might raise eyebrows. He once shared with me about a series of around thirty ceremonies that allowed him to finally navigate the complexities of his relationship with his father. This was no overnight epiphany; it was an intricate process of introspection and revelation, where he wrestled with the issue from various perspectives until he reached a place of peace. It’s noteworthy that since finding this resolution, he’s continued his journeys with Ayahuasca, turning his attention to other life areas without the topic of his dad coming up in the ceremonies. From an outsider’s viewpoint, his frequent participation might seem questionable. However, judgment often comes from a place of limited understanding. Everyone’s path is uniquely their own, marked by different rhythms and timelines. Just as it is unreasonable to dictate when someone should reach certain life milestones at a specific age, it’s equally imprudent to impose arbitrary limits on their healing journey. Life is not a straight line; it ebbs and flows with complexity and subtlety, reminding us that our journeys are deeply personal and resistant to one-size-fits-all timelines. How much are you integrating? The path of integration after an Ayahuasca retreat is as critical as the experience itself. It’s a time for reflection, for considering not just the visions and emotions that surfaced during the ceremonies, but also how to embody the lessons learned in daily life. I recall an integration call where one individual reflected on his challenge to communicate more openly. He observed his own hesitations and his tendencies to make excuses for withholding his truth. Yet he was also becoming more conscious of these moments, recognizing the patterns as they emerged—a crucial first step towards transformation. Change doesn’t always manifest as immediate. More often, it’s a gradual shift, requiring patience and the willingness to encounter the same lessons repeatedly until they truly take hold. On that same call, another person took a different route. Following the retreat, he seized the opportunity for a pivotal conversation with a relative over the phone. It wasn’t the ideal face-to-face exchange he had envisioned, but it was a proactive step, imperfect yet forward-moving, laying the groundwork for healing and understanding. Indeed, the potency of the transformation that Ayahuasca can initiate is linked to the actions taken afterward. It’s in the doing, the everyday choices, and the commitment to step into the evolved version of oneself that a new reality is born. The ceremonies may provide the insight, but it is in the integration—the embodiment of these insights through action—that true change is cultivated. Must read Blog: How many Ayahuasca ceremonies do you need? Example of falling back to old patterns The journey of self-improvement and breaking free from harmful habits is often non-linear and fraught with setbacks. Take the example of smoking—a common vice that many strive to relinquish. Picture someone returning from an Ayahuasca retreat, initially filled with a newfound repulsion for their old smoking habit. In the after glow of the retreat, they might find it easier to resist the urge, empowered by the emotional insights gained. However, as time progresses, and they find themselves amidst the familiar social circle of a party, the temptation to join in can be overpowering. Succumbing to peer pressure, they might light up a cigarette, stepping back into the comfort of old routines. This scenario poses several questions: Is it a failure of the Ayahuasca, a lack of willpower / consistency, or simply part of a longer, more complex process of change? While some individuals may grasp a lesson instantly, others may need to face the same challenge repeatedly. Each encounter with a recurring issue is not merely a setback; it’s an opportunity for deeper learning and a testament to the fact that maturation is an ongoing process. When considering the efficiency of Ayahuasca or any transformative experience, it’s crucial to acknowledge the subtler shifts that occur beneath the surface. These changes might not be immediately apparent to an onlooker, but they contribute to the gradual unfolding of a person’s evolution. It’s a gentle reminder that we’re all doing the best we can with the tools at our disposal. Often, there’s a yearning to be further along the path of growth than where we currently stand—a common human impulse. Striking a balance between self-compassion and the honest acknowledgment of one’s progress, or lack thereof, requires introspection. Ultimately, deep down, you know for yourself what is the truth for you. Judging others and feeling superior: In the realm of personal growth, especially in contexts where
What Ayahuasca taught me, 19 life lesson
The Ayahuasca journey is often described as transformative, but to say it has merely “changed” me would be an understatement. I have been on the path with Ayahuasca for over three years now, and the experience has revolutionized my understanding of myself and the world around me. For some, three years of drinking Ayahuasca may seem like a considerable amount of time, while for others, it may appear rather brief. Either way, the individual I was when I first encountered Ayahuasca and the person I have become are worlds apart. This path has offered me exponential growth in understanding, emotional depth, and maturity—almost like traveling on an ‘autobahn’ towards personal and spiritual development. In this blog post, I want to offer some of the insights that Ayahuasca has taught me, and these teachings have profoundly affected my life. So, whether you are a skeptic, a curious soul, or a seasoned Ayahuasca veteran, I invite you to explore these insights, as they may offer you a new perspective on mysterious plant medicine and its transformative power. Key takeaways: Ayahuasca has helped me to become my own best friend, quiet down the inner critic, accepting and forgiving myself. The person you become in the process is the most important. The more I grow, the more authentic and loving I am, the more of an impact I have. Connecting to my intuition, letting go of constant overthinking and being more in my body. Table of Contents https://youtu.be/qDhjKmNMV90 Lesson #1: I Am Not My Thoughts or Patterns: The Awakening I remember vividly one of my earliest experiences with Ayahuasca, a night that shifted my understanding of my own identity. For much of my life, I had been trapped in a labyrinth of my own thoughts, believing that these thought patterns defined who I was. That intense night, with various emotional revelations, I found myself face-to-face with a profound truth: I am not my thoughts or patterns. It was as if I had been granted access to a control room inside my own mind, a place where I could observe my thoughts as separate entities, independent from my true self. I understood that I had been subscribing to these patterns and beliefs, but they were not an intrinsic part of me. The most empowering aspect of this revelation was recognizing my ability to change these patterns. I was not doomed to be a slave to my own mind; instead, I had the choice and the power to reshape my thoughts, behaviors, and, by extension, my reality. This realization has set me on a path to consciously observing my thoughts and questioning their validity, allowing me to gradually untangle the web of mental constructs that had held me captive for so long. Lesson #2: Love: The Ultimate Lesson from Ayahuasca Love — the most profound of human emotions, yet often something far away. Ayahuasca introduced me to love in its purest form—having unconditional love flow through my whole body. During one of my Ayahuasca ceremonies, I was enveloped in an ineffable sense of love, so pure and boundless that words can hardly do it justice. It was a love that expanded beyond the limitations of human relationships, transcending all categories and labels. But what struck me most was the revelation of love towards myself and the love between my mom and me. I felt my mother’s unconditional love for me, which had always been there. This experience had a substantial impact on my self-love and self-confidence. It was as if Ayahuasca held up a mirror, reflecting not just my face, but my soul, showing me that I am deserving of love, from others and most importantly, from myself. This realization has empowered me to be more compassionate, not only towards others but also in the way I treat myself. Lesson #3: Positive Self-Talk: Becoming My Own Best Friend We often hear that we should be our own biggest supporters, but turning that into reality isn’t always easy. I used to be my own worst critic, constantly dissecting my actions and thoughts, searching for problems to fix. While this kind of scrutiny can drive improvement, it’s also mentally exhausting. I can not point this shift to a particular ceremony. In a way I wasn’t even aware of it until I had a conversation with a friend about self – talk and noticed how deeply I have changed in that regard. Now, the way I communicate with myself is distinctly different and more uplifting. It’s like having a supportive companion with me at all times, reminding me of my worth and cheering me on as I face life’s challenges. The change is permanent, and it has made an enormous difference in my daily life—refreshing my mental state and enhancing my overall well-being. Lesson #4: Forgiving and Accepting Myself Self-judgment and resentment have long been companions of mine. From lamenting past mistakes to feeling inadequate compared to others, I was ensnared in a cycle of self-criticism. I questioned why life’s challenges seemed to be so much easier for everyone else while I struggled to keep pace. These intrusive thoughts were draining, holding me back from truly enjoying life and appreciating my unique journey. During a particularly impactful Ayahuasca ceremony, I experienced a profound shift. It was as though the self-judgment had lifted, and I could see myself for what I really am—a human being, imperfect but always growing. In that moment, I learned to forgive myself, especially the younger version of me who simply did the best he could with what he knew at the time. Realizing that my past mistakes were not indictments of my character but rather stepping stones in my growth was liberating. I fully accepted myself, flaws and all, and this acceptance spread like a balm over the old wounds of resentment and inadequacy. I could move forward with a sense of compassion for myself that I had never felt before. This shift helped me reach a deep level of peace within
Ayahuasca Integration Coach: How the right impulse can spark the transformation you have been waiting for
So you just had your first experiences with Ayahuasca and you are asking yourself, what’s next? How will my life change now? Maybe some things seam very clear to you after an Ayahuasca retreat, but 2 – 3 weeks into your daily life, you are confronted with challenges you thought you already overcame… And now they seam even more difficult. This can be taxing and you are looking for ways to finally transcend your old self and create the new you that you know you are capable of creating. Maybe the missing element is Ayahuasca Integration Coaching. To receive the right impulse at the right time to help shift things inside and outside of you. So let’s start diving deeper on what Ayahuasca Integration Coaching it and how it can help you. Key takeaways: The time after Ayahuasca can be intense as you have to navigate new profound insights into your daily life. This can require you to start changing deep rooted beliefs plus associated habits. Add in difficult conversations that are often necessary after Ayahuasca as well. An Ayahuasca Integration Coach can help you stay on track, provide valuable insights and impulses and help you stay accountable towards the new you that you are building. Table of Contents https://youtu.be/6nGWtkC2nRk What is Ayahuasca Integration Coaching? First things first, allow me to demystify this term. Picture this: You’ve just ventured into the universe of Ayahuasca – an experience so profound, transformative, and perhaps even a tad perplexing. And then, you return to your day-to-day life, where the accumulation of work emails and commitments make the teachings of Ayahuasca seem galaxies away. But guess what? That world of profound Ayahuasca wisdom holds the keys to enriching your daily life! It’s like a bridge connecting the two worlds, and that’s precisely where Ayahuasca Integration Coaching steps in. This process helps you translate the mystic teachings of Ayahuasca into actionable, daily practices. It’s like having a personal translator to help you understand and integrate those profound messages into your day-to-day existence, crafting a coherent, beautiful, and authentic ceremony of life. What you learn in your Ayahuasca Integration Coaching sessions Ayahuasca Integration Coaching is like setting off on a journey. A journey through the different parts of our life that all matter, that all play a part in how happy, content and fulfilled we feel. Just imagine you’re juggling – keeping several balls in the air. If one ball drops, things get off balance. Life can be tricky, it’s a bit like a puzzle. All the pieces need to fit together to get the full picture. When one piece is missing or out of place, it affects the whole. But don’t worry, as your Ayahuasca Integration Coach, I’ll be right there with you, helping to find the right spots for each piece until the picture comes together What’s significant about this coaching is that it’s all about you. Your life, your journey. Maybe you need to zoom in on one part of your life and neglect some of the rest for a while. Maybe you can work on several parts at the same time. We’ll figure this out together. The goal? To help you put all the pieces together so that you can live your best life. So, let’s have a look at what parts of life we’ll be exploring: First, we’ll work on your relationship with yourself. Who you really are, not just who others see or who you think you should be. We’ll dig deep to find your core, your truth. Then we’ll try to figure out what you’re here for. What gets you up in the morning, what makes your heart beat faster? It’s not just about finding a job, but about finding something that gives you a sense of purpose and fulfillment. We’ll also talk about your physical health. Your body is your vehicle in this life, and it needs to be in good shape to take you where you want to go. Together, we’ll find ways to make sure your body can keep up with you. Let’s not forget about love. We’ll look at how to build a romantic relationship that gives you joy, support, and growth. Love is like a dance, and we’ll figure out the steps together. Sometimes, old wounds from the past keep us from moving forward. We’ll work on healing these wounds, forgiving the past, and rebuilding relationships with family members if needed. And finally, we’ll focus on your place in the community. Because we humans are social beings. We need others to share our lives with, to celebrate the good times and support each other in the tough times. So, are you ready for this journey with Ayahuasca Integration Coaching? Let’s walk this path together and help you build a life that feels good, in all aspects. Must read: Ayahuasca Integration – How to maintain the magic of Ayahuasca How you can benefit from Ayahuasca Integration Coaching Navigating the world after an Ayahuasca journey can feel like stepping into a whole new universe. A universe where the borders of the familiar are blurred, where everyday life is sprinkled with glimpses of the profound wisdom you’ve just uncovered. It’s like looking at life through a freshly cleaned window, everything is clear and sharp. But what do you do with all these newfound insights? How do you translate them into your daily routine, into your 9-to-5 job, into the busyness of your everyday life? Ayahuasca reveals powerful insights about how we can embrace our daily lives with more consciousness, more depth. It’s like opening up a treasure chest of life’s secrets. You’re shown how you can dance with life, not just be a spectator. But the dance steps? They might not be easy to follow. They may be intricate, complex, and, at times, confusing. That’s where Ayahuasca Integration Coaching steps in. This unique coaching journey is designed especially for those who want to delve deep into the transformative journey that Ayahuasca invites us on. For those who
Depression after Ayahuasca: Can you be worse after an Ayahuasca retreat
Most people share how Ayahuasca has helped them transform their lives. How it helped them let go of trauma, process the emotional impact that still affects them today, breakthrough their limiting beliefs, and create a vision for their lives It served as a catalyst for an incredible life. So you went to an Ayahuasca retreat yourself to experience the magic of Ayahuasca. However, after the retreat, you feel worse than before. You feel agitated, sad, and frustrated, and you even see signs that you are about to fall into depression. This blog post is here to help you if you experience these strong emotional shifts after Ayahuasca, which were not what you were looking for in the first place. Key takeaways: The suppressed problems in your life can become apparent after you drink Ayahuasca which can create challenges in your life. Differentiate if you are going through a sad / intense phase or you are in a chronically depressed state. Maintain a level of optimism that you are not alone on this journey. That it is good that these uncomfortable truths come up so you can start addressing them now instead of losing another 5 years of passivity. Take one step at a time, do things which are good for you, possibly consider an additional Ayahuasca Retreat or working with a therapist / Integration Coach. Table of Contents Depression after Ayahuasca – becoming aware of the suppressed problems of your life Maybe you used to cruise through life, living one day after the other. Without major problems or major success. A normal life. And after you drank Ayahuasca, you start to see all the things which are wrong in your life. And you start to feel a level of depression after Ayahuasca. It’s like Ayahuasca gives you a VIP pass to the movie of your life, but now it’s playing in super high definition, showing details you’ve never noticed before. You’re in the director’s chair, observing the recurring themes and patterns in your life. Love and Heartbreak Take your romantic relationships, for example. After drinking Ayahuasca, it’s like you suddenly have this uncanny ability to see patterns you were oblivious to before. You know, like those ‘why am I always falling for the same kind of person’ moments? Or the gut-punching realization that maybe, just maybe, you’ve been the villain in some of your love stories. Your relationship with work And let’s not forget about work and career choices. Ayahuasca might lead you to ponder, ‘Am I really passionate about what I do, or am I just chasing that paycheck? Am I in the profession that I am in to make my parents proud or did I actually chose it for myself? It’s like suddenly having clarity about your professional trajectory, realizing how much it’s tangled up with your self-worth, ambitions, or maybe even fears. Your friendships Then, there are your buddies, your squad. It’s weird how Ayahuasca can make you question these bonds. Are these friendships real and nurturing, or just convenient alliances? Do your friends reflect who you truly are, or who you pretend to be? Your Social Patterns And oh boy, the way you interact with others, that’s a whole new Pandora’s box. You might start to see that the social dance you do, whether it’s being the life of the party or the wallflower, is often just a reaction to past traumas or insecurities. Scary, right? That a lot of your patterns are actually trauma responses, isolating yourself so you won’t be rejected or getting hurt. Maybe you are always socializing because you cannot be with yourself. That you use other people to your own self-benefit or that other people use you. This can have a serious impact on your mental health. Must read blog: Ayahuasca Integration – How to maintain the magic of Ayahuasca You awaken to the hard truth to the way you have been living your life With all these patterns exposed – post Ayahuasca depression might start to kick in and you start questioning the life you’ve been leading. It can be a bit unsettling, like you’ve been living a lie or like you’ve wasted a lot of precious time. It can feel like a spiritual hangover, making you wonder if that Ayahuasca trip was worth it after all. Remember, Ayahuasca is like a magnifying glass to your soul, so it’s bound to reveal some uncomfortable truths. But hey, acknowledging them is the first step to transforming them, right? So, brace yourself and embrace the journey. It might be bumpy, but it’s your ride to a more authentic life. Wrestling with Your Inner Demons: Sadness vs. Depression Before we venture further, let’s clear up one crucial thing—feeling sad, being alone, or feeling isolated isn’t the same as being depressed or having a major depressive disorder. It’s like comparing an afternoon rainfall to a full-blown thunderstorm. Now, I’m not minimizing these emotions—they’re pretty heavy, trust me, I know. But it’s essential to understand that they don’t always mean you’re in the grip of depression after Ayahuasca. You see, when you take Ayahuasca, it’s like you’ve just uncorked a fizzing bottle of your subconscious. It’s like disturbing a stagnant pond—there’s a lot of old, murky water (or emotions, in this case) that has been sitting unnoticed, and now it’s all stirred up. And you’re seeing it, smelling it, even tasting it. Gross, right? But that’s part of the process and can be one of the effects of Ayahuasca. When you’re feeling all these intense emotions, it might be tempting to reach for your usual coping mechanisms—maybe it’s a tub of ice cream, a Netflix binge, or even burying yourself in work. But what if you just sat with the feeling instead? Let it wash over you like a wave. It might be uncomfortable, even painful, but remember, this feeling is part of the healing process. It’s your body’s way of flushing out the emotional toxins. However, if what you’re feeling
Nightmares After Ayahuasca: When your subconscious still tries to communicate with you
It’s been a few days since you had your Ayahuasca Ceremony, and physically it has left your system, it’s spirit is still strong withing you. This manifest in a heightened sensitivity but is even more intense in your dream, or nightmares… Yes, nightmares. Unsettling, vivid, and at times frightening, these nightly intrusions can catch you off guard. One moment you’re peacefully asleep, the next you’re caught up in a storm of surreal images and sensations that can leave you breathless, sweaty, and anxious. Nightmares, though frightening, can happen after an Ayahuasca journey and is nothing to be concerned about. On the contrary they can offer significant insights if you are ready to understand the messages behind them. Key takeaways: It is normal that you are experiencing vivid dreams / nightmares after a ceremony. The Ayahuasca is still working in you and things are moving in your subconscious. Within a week (usually 2 – 5 days) the intense dreams will stop. If the nightmares persist consider doing a flower bath with bitter plants (for example tobacco, ruda, pino, eucalipto, artemisa, salvia) to energetically close the lops of the ceremony. Table of Contents Still Part of the Ceremony For many Ayahuasca participants, the dreams following a ceremony can feel as though the journey is still unfolding, like the echo of a song that lingers in the air long after the final notes have been struck. This can be both a disconcerting and enlightening experience. Ayahuasca, often referred to as the vine of the soul or the teacher plant, continues to guide you through the labyrinth of your subconscious, revealing hidden truths, unresolved issues, and forgotten memories. Just know that this is normal, and some parts of your subconscious still want to develop and show you things. Many times it is also a message that we have not yet internalized. Nightmares after Ayahuasca: Deciphering the Dream Messages The dream world is a place of symbols and metaphors. Each nightmare after Ayahuasca could be an attempt by your subconscious to communicate important messages to your conscious mind. Think of them as encoded signals sent by your inner self to help you navigate your healing process. For instance, a common theme could be confronting your fears or insecurities, often symbolized by sinister figures or threatening situations. This is your subconscious bringing to the surface what you might have been ignoring or suppressing. In the gentle yet firm hands of Ayahuasca, these dreams become a tool for self-discovery and healing. Sleepless Nights and Dread of Dreams Sometimes, the nightmares after Ayahuasca can be so intense that they instill a fear of sleep. You might find yourself caught in a cycle of anxiety, sleep deprivation, and more anxiety. It’s important to remember that this is a natural reaction. After all, Ayahuasca pushes us out of our comfort zones, coaxing us to confront our fears and wounds. Don’t shy away from these dreams. Instead, see them as opportunities to confront your shadow side. Journaling your dreams can be a helpful practice. It allows you to understand the underlying themes, symbols, and messages in your nightmares. You’re not alone in this journey; reach out to the facilitators of your ceremony or supportive communities to share your experiences. The Energetic Closure of the Ceremony If your nightmares after Ayahuasca persist, it could be a sign that the shaman didn’t close the ceremony properly at the energetic level. Ayahuasca rituals involve energetic interactions, and a well-conducted ceremony requires proper opening and closure to ensure participants’ safety and well-being. How to close energetic loops of an Ayahuasca ceremony. There are multiple things that you can do to do a cleansing on yourself after an Ayahuasca ceremony. One of them is taking a bath with bitter plants (for example, tobacco, ruda, pino, eucalipto, artemisa, salvia), a traditional method of purifying and resetting one’s energetic field. The bitterness of the plants absorbs and removes any lingering negative energy. Smoking tobacco is another practice that could help. In many indigenous cultures, tobacco is considered a powerful cleanser and protector. It’s used to ward off negative energies and create a safe space for spiritual work. When you light the tobacco, make sure you understand that you are intending to connect with the spirit of tobacco. A spirit of the light and the sun. Do not have the cigar pointing towards the earth, but at least horizontally or upwards (to the sky). Share your intention with the cigar when lighting it, welcome the spirit of tobacco into your life, and stay focused on your intention while smoking the cigar. Also, when you use tobacco to clean, it is important that you spit the saliva out. If you know an experienced Ayahuasca facilitator or shaman in your area, it is also good to reach out to him and ask him for a cleaning ritual as well. Sometimes we get asked to come to somebody after they went to an Ayahuasca ceremony (not with us) to help them close the energetic loops. The Healing Power of Companionship As you navigate through this post-Ayahuasca phase, don’t hesitate to lean on your friends or loved ones. Consider staying over at a friend’s place or inviting them to spend some time with you. This can not only bring comfort but also give you a safe space to share your experiences and thoughts. Nightmares can feel less daunting when shared with someone who listens and understands. Moreover, having a companion nearby can offer a reassuring sense of safety and grounding, especially when the dream world seems overwhelming. Must-Read Blog: Ayahuasca Retreat Cost It Will Pass, you will be Fine In the face of unsettling nightmares after Ayahuasca and the emotional roller-coaster that can follow an Ayahuasca journey, always remember – this too shall pass. The vine of the soul has deep wisdom of its own. It doesn’t merely stir your psyche for the sake of it; it brings to the surface what needs to be seen, addressed, and healed. These dreams, as intense as they
Ayahuasca and relationships: The impact of Ayahuasca on romantic relationships
Ayahuasca and relationships: What is Your Vision for Your Life, and How Does This Fit in With Your Partner? Picture your life as a beautiful painting. It’s a masterpiece you’re creating every day, brushstroke by brushstroke. Your desires, aspirations, and values are the vibrant colors on your palette. You have dreams of maybe having kids, living in a certain place, or sticking to your core values. Now, enter Ayahuasca into the scene. This experience can be like shaking up your palette, introducing new colors, or blending the existing ones in a way you’ve never imagined before. Here’s what I mean. After an Ayahuasca experience, your perspectives can shift (possibly dramatically). It’s as if you’ve climbed to a higher vantage point, and now you see your life and your relationship from a new angle. Suddenly, the colors in your palette might look different. You might start questioning your masterpiece so far. Does it truly reflect who you are now, after your Ayahuasca journey? And where does your partner fit in this new piece of art? You know, it’s not a bad thing if Ayahuasca stirs these questions within you. Quite the opposite, in fact. If these questions bubble up, it’s a golden opportunity to take a step back, look at your canvas, and start a discussion with your partner. Let’s face it, talking about your future—kids, location, values, or even the possibility of growing old together—can be intimidating. But remember, a beautiful painting requires both light and shadow. Similarly, meaningful relationships thrive on joyous times and tough conversations. So, invite your partner into your studio, show them your canvas, and talk about your new colors. Open up about how your Ayahuasca experience has transformed your vision of your life. But, equally important, listen. What does your partner think? What’s their vision for the future? Remember, the masterpiece of your life is not a solo project. Your partner is there, painting their own canvas right next to yours. With open communication and understanding, you might find that your paintings beautifully complement each other, creating a shared masterpiece that reflects a deep, loving, and long-lasting connection. It’s all about discovering whether your visions can blend together to form a harmonious work of art. After all, isn’t that what life is all about? Do Not Force Your Partner to Go on This Journey But here’s the thing: you can share a life with someone, but it doesn’t mean you need to share every single step of your journey. You might be ready to dive into the deep waters of Ayahuasca’s lessons, but your partner may prefer to dip their toes into the shallows, or they might not feel the call of the water at all. And that’s completely okay. It’s important to remember that, just like you found your path to Ayahuasca, your partner has their own journey to make and their own lessons to learn. It might sound like a cliché, but it’s true: everyone is on their own spiritual timeline, and it’s not our place to speed up or slow down someone else’s pace. And maybe your journey starts to lead you down a different path than your partners. Maybe the difference will start to become more apparent, and you will start to shift apart. This can be a difficult process to go through. However, ultimately, I believe it is most important to stay true to oneself, and whoever is supposed to be on your side will be. Is the new you compatible with your partner? Let’s get real: change is a part of life. We all grow, evolve, and adapt as we navigate through life’s twists and turns. But when you’ve gone through an experience as profound as Ayahuasca, these changes can feel more like a metamorphosis. Emerging as a whole provides you with new perspectives and understandings about your life. So Ayahuasca and relationships are closely tied together. At first, this can feel exhilarating and liberating. But as the initial rush settles, you might find yourself casting a fresh eye on different aspects of your life. The thing is, as you change, the dynamics of your relationship might shift too. This “new you” could be singing a different tune, one that your partner might not be familiar with. You might find yourself asking, “Is this new me compatible with my partner?” This question isn’t about judging your partner or trying to find flaws in your relationship. No, it’s more about understanding how your transformation aligns with your shared life. It’s about discovering whether this evolved version of yourself fits in the relationship you’ve built together. Navigating this space can feel a bit like walking a tightrope. You’re balancing the transformation of yourself on one hand and the continuity of your relationship on the other. And that’s okay. It’s a process. It takes time, patience, and open-hearted conversations. It’s important to approach these talks with compassion and empathy, not just for your partner but for yourself too. Share your feelings, express your changes, and listen to your partner’s views. Remember, this isn’t a one-way street. Your partner is also experiencing these shifts, though from a different perspective. Their feelings are just as valid. In the end, it all boils down to understanding. Understanding yourself, your partner, and the unique dance that your relationship is. And who knows? This new you might add a beautiful new rhythm to your dance, making your relationship stronger and more harmonious than ever before. Or you will start to shift apart. How supportive and understanding is your partner with the new you? Changes can be thrilling, like opening a new chapter in the book of life. But let’s be honest, they can also be challenging, especially when they ripple into the ocean of your relationship. As you stand on the shores of this new self, you might find yourself looking over your shoulder at your partner, wondering, “How supportive and understanding are they with the new me?” The transformation you’re experiencing is not just about
Career change after Ayahuasca: What to do when your job feels soul sucking.
The shifts happening after an Ayahuasca retreat can feel like stepping into a new world, and sometimes that world reshapes not just your inner landscapes but your outer ones too. A number of people do not feel connected to their current career after drinking Ayahuasca; they have to drag themselves to work, but they want to enjoy and have a deeper purpose behind the work they are engaged in. So how do you change this discrepancy? It is also difficult to leave something behind that you have worked the majority of your professional life for. So what are the possible solutions? In this blog post, we will dive deeper into the topic of exploring a career change after drinking Ayahuasca. Key takeaways: After an Ayahuasca Retreat it might become apparent that your current career is not in alignment with you anymore. However, consider if it is more about the company, your attitude towards work, your coworkers etc. that contribute to the resentment that you feel towards your work. Many times it is our attitude towards work, then the work itself. By rediscovering the why behind your work, the value you provide to the people around you, why you started with this field to begin with can reconnect you to your profession. Table of Contents Digging Deeper Into The Why Behind Your Career Path Do you remember the moment when you decided on your career path? Was it a single, defining point in time, or a gradual transition guided by a series of events? For many of us, our career choices are a blend of conscious decisions and subconscious influences, like pieces in an puzzle, fitting together to construct the story of our lives. The reasons behind our career paths often reside on a spectrum, which ranges from deeply personal motivations to external persuasions that subtly nudge us down certain lanes. Perhaps you chose your path for the allure of wealth. In a world that equates success with financial prosperity, this is a common rationale. The thought of a well-filled bank account, the freedom it promises, and the respect it garners are indeed attractive propositions. Maybe you chose your profession not for the money itself but for the stability and security it provides, as insurance against life’s unexpected challenges. For many, the pursuit of financial gain isn’t just about materialistic desires but a practical response to the demands of life. Alternatively, your chosen path might be fueled by a quest for validation. For some, their careers serve as a yardstick for their self-worth, a badge of honor that validates their competence, intelligence, and diligence. In a society that measures success through professional achievement, it’s easy to equate our job titles with our identities. We work tirelessly to prove ourselves and meet the high expectations set by society, and in the process, our professions become an integral part of our identity. Or maybe your career choice was influenced by your family—an homage to tradition or an effort to fulfill the expectations of your loved ones. You might be walking the path laid down by your parents, consciously or unconsciously emulating their footsteps, driven by a deep-rooted desire to make them proud. This could be a path that was chosen out of respect and love for them, or it might be a result of societal or familial pressure. Certainly, apart from external influences and pressures, it’s vital not to overlook the power of internal reasoning in shaping our career paths. The voice within us, our intuition, often guides us to avenues that truly resonate with our core values and interests. This inner voice may lead us to a path less travelled, a niche where we can exploit our unique strengths and talents. Have you ever had moments when something just felt ‘right’? When a decision didn’t need extensive rationalization because it ignited a spark inside you? That’s your intuition speaking. It’s about feeling a magnetic pull towards a career that not only caters to your talents and strengths but also piques your curiosity and fuels your passion. This intuitive approach to career choice often cultivates a deep sense of fulfillment because it’s born from an inner alignment. It enables you to bring your entire self—your skills, passion, and unique perspective—to your work. It’s about living in tune with your authentic self and investing your energy in something that truly matters to you. When your career stems from this profound place, work doesn’t feel like a chore but an exciting journey of self-expression and self-realization. Perhaps you’ll discover that this is an integral part that has been missing in your career choice. And most likely, you have overlooked this aspect of your career choice… Must read Blog: Ayahuasca Integration – how to maintain the magic of Ayahuasca Your Relationship with Work Work is a huge part of our lives, the expression of our abilities, and often the vessel of our dreams. We dedicate a considerable chunk of our waking hours to it. So, how we relate to our work isn’t just an incidental detail of life; it can be a decisive factor influencing our overall wellbeing, happiness, and sense of self. Consider this: do you view your job merely as a means to an end, a necessary burden to keep the bills paid and maintain a certain lifestyle? If your workday mostly brings about stress, anxiety, and a pervasive sense of dread, it’s worth examining why this is the case. Perhaps the work environment is hostile or unfulfilling, or the tasks themselves are too demanding or monotonous. It could also be that your work intrudes on your personal life, leaving little room for relaxation or recreation. These are not just minor inconveniences; they are significant stressors that can affect your mental and physical health, your relationships, and your overall quality of life. You are striving for your job to bring you joy, excitement, and a sense of fulfillment. But most likely you are not feeling that way, and the big
Ayahuasca Spiritual Awakening – The painful path of unbecoming and transforming into who you were meant to be
Can Ayahuasca cause spiritual enlightenment? Have you ever felt like something is missing in your life? Like you’re going through the motions but not really living? Many people have experienced this feeling, and some turn to spiritual practices in search of a deeper meaning. One such practice that has gained popularity in recent years is the use of sacred plant medicines, such as ayahuasca, which are known for their way of introducing extraordinary states of consciousness. These plant medicines are often used in ceremonial settings to help individuals connect with their inner selves and find a greater sense of purpose. But can ayahuasca really cause spiritual awakening? The answer is yes—for many people, ayahuasca has been a catalyst for profound spiritual experiences. Key takeaways: A spiritual awakening is an awakening to the limitation and suffering of our current self. Many times an spiritual awakening is caused by severe illness, loss of a loved one or similiar significant events in one’s life. Ayahuasca can trigger a spiritual awakening by becomeing aware of the pain that we have suppressed and giving us a path to become into the person we are capable of. A spiritual awakening is not just sunshine and rainbows. In many cases it is the opposite, forcing us to confront many aspects of ourselves, our limitations and our suffering. Table of Contents Can Ayahuasca cause spiritual awakening? Have you ever felt like something is missing in your life? Like you’re going through the motions but not really living? Many people have experienced this feeling, and some turn to spiritual practices in search of a deeper meaning. One such practice that has gained popularity in recent years is the use of sacred plant medicines, such as ayahuasca, which are known for their way of introducing extraordinary states of consciousness. These plant medicines are often used in ceremonial settings to help individuals connect with their inner selves and find a greater sense of purpose. But can ayahuasca really cause spiritual awakening? The answer is yes—for many people, ayahuasca has been a catalyst for profound spiritual experiences. Ayahuasca can help individuals access deeper parts of themselves and gain insights into their lives. Through introspection, it can bring up repressed emotions and traumas, allowing for deep healing to take place. This can lead to feelings of liberation and inner peace that can be life-changing. It can also bring insights into things we were not aware of. The truth is that the vast majority of our lives are dictated by an autopilot, by belief systems we have adapted from our parents, the society in which we live, and early experiences that end up shaping our lives. Through the Ayahuasca retreat, you might become aware that: the work you do What do you experience in your romantic relationships? the type of friends you have It’s just a pattern. And that might lead to bigger questions and a spiritual awakening. I am starting to ask for your life. Do you really want to live that life? Or what is really the wish of your soul and the type of life you want to create? Before going on the journey with Ayahuasca, it is important to prepare. For this, we created a separate blog: Must read Blog: Ayahuasca Preparation – How to prepare for your Ayahuasca ceremony So, let’s dive deeper into the topic. What is a spiritual awakening? Spiritual awakening is a journey of self-discovery that can be enhanced by an ayahuasca ceremony or retreat. Ayahuasca ceremonies and retreats can deepen one’s understanding of their true nature and the interconnectedness of all things. This can lead to positive changes in behavior, relationships, and overall health. The ultimate goal of spiritual growth is still to achieve enlightenment, which is a state of being where one is free from suffering and has a deep understanding of reality. Also, Ayahuasca can show us our patterns and force us to change certain aspects of our lives because we know deep down that they are not serving us anymore. What can trigger a spiritual awakening? Medical conditions that can trigger a spiritual awakening Certain medical conditions have been known to trigger a spiritual awakening, with effects such as near-death experiences, chronic illness, and mental health disorders. For instance, some individuals who have had near-death experiences report feeling a sense of peace and calmness after the experience, with the effect of feeling more connected to something larger than themselves. Similarly, chronic illnesses such as cancer or autoimmune diseases can have profound effects on individuals, causing them to question their purpose in life and seek deeper meaning. Mental health disorders such as depression or anxiety can also have significant effects, leading to introspection and self-discovery. Our soul talks to us through our bodies, but many times we are not listening to its message. So the signals start to become stronger and stronger until we cannot ignore them any longer. This opens the door for a spiritual awakening and an understanding of what we need to change in our lives. Trauma as a catalyst for spiritual awakening Trauma is another factor that can lead to a spiritual awakening. Physical or emotional abuse, neglect, or other traumatic experiences can have profound effects on individuals, causing them to reevaluate their beliefs and values. They may begin to question why they experienced such trauma and what lessons they are meant to learn from it. Through this process of questioning and seeking answers, some individuals may experience the effects of spiritual growth and enlightenment. Intense meditation or prayer Intense meditation or prayer has also been known to have profound effects on spiritual awakenings in some individuals. By quieting the mind and focusing on the present moment, one may become more aware of the effects of their thoughts, feelings, and surroundings. This heightened awareness can lead to insights about one’s self and one’s place in the world. Some people report feeling a deep sense of connection with nature or the universe through these practices, which
