Ayahuasca Ego death: Reset your current identity and build a new foundation

Ayahuasca ego death

Ego death is a theme that can come up in an Ayahuasca ceremony, many people even actively want to encounter this. But why is there such a strong fascination and allure around this topic.  

In this blog, we’ll explore the essence of ego death, its implications post-experience, the potential benefits, and yes, the inherent risks. This profound journey has been described as both enlightening and challenging, and it’s essential to understand more about this if you are going into an Ayahuasca ceremony with this intention or if you experienced it yourself and are trying to make sense of the experience.

Key takeaways: 

  • Your ego is your current identity and it can cause a lot of suffering in your life 
  • Experiencing Ego death can serve as a reset 
  • It can be a confusing experience and start moving a lot of energy within. Which is challenging but also necessary to build a new foundation for the new you. 
  • Be very mindful after your ego death, your ego will reform and at the time after the ceremony you can influence and shape it tremendously. 

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What is the ego? 

The concept of the ego, much like other philosophical and psychological terms, doesn’t come with a one-size-fits-all definition. Depending on whom you ask, interpretations and beliefs about the ego can vary significantly. However, two notable figures, Dr. David Hawkins and Eckhart Tolle, provide insightful takes on the subject that resonate with many.

Dr. David Hawkins presents the ego as the embodiment of our lower self. In his perspective, the ego is fundamentally about survival, operating from a place of self-preservation and often clashing with our higher self. A deep dive into his teachings, as outlined in sources like [this], reveals that the more anchored we are in lower states of consciousness, the tighter the ego’s grasp on our psyche. It’s as if the ego thrives and exerts more control when our consciousness remains in a more primal or basic state.

Eckhart Tolle, another luminary in the realm of self-awareness, has a distinct portrayal of the ego. According to him, the “ego” represents a part of your mind that constantly comments, doubts, and speculates on everything around it. Driven by an underlying fear of being nothing, the ego aims to neglect this fear by identifying with material, thought, and emotional elements. This results in the construction of what we commonly perceive as our “self.” [Source].

Taking a step back and summarizing the insights from both these thought leaders, one can come to the conclusion that the ego is essentially our constructed identity. It encompasses everything from our name, occupation, achievements, to our deeply held beliefs, pride, shame, and guilt. In essence, our self-image and how we perceive our place in the world is governed by the ego. While certain facets of this identity might serve us well, acting as motivators or protective measures, others could be detrimental, not just for our individual well-being but also for our relationships and interactions with others. Some aspects of our ego might empower us and lead to growth, while others might limit us, shape negative patterns and behaviors.

Why people want to experience Ayahuasca Ego death: An Escape from Self-Made Traps

We are the creator of our problems and our suffering. And many times it can seam like we are standing in our own way.

Consider those moments just before you’re on the brink of significant progress in life. That could be in relationships, career, personal growth, or any venture. Just when you’re about to get to the next level, a familiar self-sabotaging trait kicks in. These are not mere accidents but patterns deeply ingrained in our psyche. The worst part? They keep on happening over and over again. We recognize our tendencies to revert to harmful coping mechanisms, even when we understand their damaging consequences.

Our interactions with others, particularly those closest to us, are another arena where our ego’s impulses often play out destructively. A flash of anger, a hurtful comment, or an impulsive action can wound relationships, sometimes irreparably. Witnessing the pain and distress we inflict on loved ones can be agonizing, deepening the chasm of guilt and regret within us.

The accumulated weight of these patterns, regrets, and the cycle of pain can be unbearable. It feels like carrying a heavy backpack of negativity that we desperately wish to shed. No matter how hard we try to “let go” or “move on,” these burdens have a sneaky way of making a comeback, often with renewed intensity.

Given this backdrop, it’s no wonder that many are drawn to the promise of ego death. The idea of dissolving these layers of self-inflicted barriers, even momentarily, is immensely appealing. Psychedelics, and Ayahuasca in particular, have gained a reputation of helping to break down the ego, to experience an ego death. This can reset, cleanse, and start afresh without the baggage that has held them back for so long. If you are interested in experiencing Ayahuasca, you can find out more about our retreats on this part of our website: Ayahuasca Retreat Colombia

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What happens after Ego death 

The experience of ego death can be profound and life-altering. But it’s essential to understand that it’s not a permanent state of being. Imagine ego death as a system reboot for your psyche. Once the system is back up, the software (in this case, the ego) begins to reinstall. And just like the old software, it comes with its preferences, biases, and familiar patterns.

While the ego’s primary function has always been survival, it does this by creating an identity rooted in familiar territory. This territory comprises experiences, behaviors, patterns, and belief systems accumulated over a lifetime. It’s like a well-trodden path. Even if this path is riddled with pitfalls and obstacles, it’s still known, and to the ego, familiarity equals safety. Therefore, the post-ego-death phase can witness the ego attempting to revert to its old self, driven by the allure of what’s known, even if it’s a source of suffering.

However, here lies the real opportunity. The aftermath of an ego death offers a unique window where the newly-forming ego is moldable. While the default settings will lean towards the old, there’s a chance to reshape, reconfigure, and reorient this identity towards a healthier, more conscious self. But achieving this demands effort and vigilance. 

After such a profound experience, there’s a need to be proactive. It’s crucial to monitor and guide the thoughts, emotions, and behaviors that start to take form as the ego rebuilds itself. Integrating the insights and revelations from the ego death experience can pave the way for a more authentic, compassionate, and evolved identity. But this integration doesn’t happen by itself; it requires intentionality and commitment.

Ego death, while transformative, is just the beginning. The real work lies in the aftermath, where the challenge is to mold the emerging ego to align better with one’s highest self. For those interested in optimizing this post-experience phase, our Ayahuasca Integration article provides valuable guidance and strategies to ensure the new ego serves rather than hinders personal growth.

Becoming one with the universe

It’s intriguing to think that, at our core, we inherently understand the interconnectedness of all things. Yet, as we grow, our ego, that internal narrator, often emphasizes our separateness, reinforcing boundaries and distinctions. The ego paints a vivid picture of an ‘us versus them’ world, where we are individual entities operating independently from everything and everyone around us. It highlights our uniqueness, which, while valuable, can sometimes overshadow the equally significant reality of our interconnectedness.

In the vast expanse of the universe, the ego’s perspective can make us feel small, isolated, and distinct. But there’s an alternate perspective, one where every atom, every organism, every star, and every galaxy are part of one. It’s in this boundlessness that we can experience oneness, a profound sense of connection that goes beyond the ego’s limitations. This is the sensation of being intrinsically linked to the universe, a feeling of merging with the existence of everything.

Many spiritual seekers, philosophers, and even scientists have touched upon this profound realization of oneness. And many are seeking this experience with Ayahuasca, some even with Bufo Alvarius which leads you straight to this experience. 

Ego death on Bufo vs. Ayahuasca 

Bufo, often referred to as the “5-MeO-DMT experience,” will catapult you into the cosmos. The immediacy of its effects is staggering, where the ego is torn apart almost instantaneously. Resisting or holding back is futile. Within moments of inhalation, participants often find themselves thrust into an overwhelming space of unity, an unfathomable vastness where the ego’s chatter is silenced. It’s a deep dive into the infinite, a plunge that lasts anywhere from 15 to 30 minutes but can feel like an eternity.

Given its intensity, Bufo doesn’t offer much room for gradual introspection or a step-by-step journey. It’s a direct flight to the core of existence, bypassing layers of resistance and emotional baggage. The speed and potency of Bufo can be both its strength and its challenge. For some, the abruptness might be jarring, leaving them disoriented, while for others, it offers a direct route to the profound realization of oneness.

Ayahuasca, on the other hand, is a more extended, introspective look within. It’s not a mere sprint but a marathon, working through layers of consciousness, emotions, memories, and beliefs. Ego death through Ayahuasca often requiring participants to wade through personal traumas, confront fears, and release deep-seated emotions.

For me, and many others, Ayahuasca doesn’t always offer immediate entry into states of cosmic oneness. It asks for surrender, patience, and courage. While the ego dissolution and unity with the universe are attainable, they often come after navigating a labyrinth of personal introspection. It’s not always a given in every ceremony. Instead, it’s a potential peak, achieved after climbing a mountain of self-awareness.

Understanding the risks of an ego death with Ayahuasca

Ego death, especially for those deeply entrenched in their constructed identities, can be destabilizing.

Such an intense experience can leave an individual grappling with a cascade of questions. “Where was my sense of self? Was I ever in any real danger? Have I altered something fundamental within me? Why can’t I shake off these vivid memories? Why am I plagued with insomnia?” This internal turmoil can stem from the ego’s resistance to the dissolution it just experienced. The very foundation on which one’s understanding of the world was built has now been shaken, leading to these deep existential queries. And through this confusion is where growth can happen. Sometimes you need to shake things up to be able to build a new foundation

The discomfort and unease following an Ayahuasca ceremony often signal that the plant’s teachings are not yet complete. It’s as if the medicine has initiated a process, prompting you to continue the inner work. Ayahuasca might seem relentless, but it’s pointing you toward the growth you sought. At this point it helps to recall one’s initial intention. Why did you seek Ayahuasca in the first place? Was it not for a profound shift or challenges you were facing? Remember, growth rarely occurs in comfort zones. 

Post-ceremony, you’re presented with a choice. Do you resist the transformation, yearning for the old yet unsatisfactory ways? Or do you embrace the discomfort, acknowledging it as a sign that you’re on the brink of meaningful change?

It’s natural to feel vulnerable after an intense Ayahuasca experience. The world might seem different, and you may feel exposed without the armor of your former ego. But within this vulnerability lies your strength. Every challenge faced post-ceremony is an opportunity to solidify the lessons learned and to rebuild a more authentic version of yourself.

Final thoughts

The aftermath of an Ayahuasca ceremony, especially one that induces ego death, is undeniably potent. It’s a journey fraught with both revelations and challenges. While the path may be strewn with obstacles, the destination is a renewed, more enlightened self. Trust in the process, lean on the support of the community, and remember: every transformation requires navigating through the unknown.


Can you experience ego death on Ayahuasca? 

Yes, you can experience ego death on Ayahuasca. However, many times it will require you to work though things in your ceremony first.

How will my life change after an Ayahuasca ego death? 

In a way an ego death on Ayahuasca is a reset. Know that your ego has not died forever. It will come back, in the old form or a new one. In this time you are very impressionable, so make sure you focus your energy on the person you want to become and the values you want to live by.

Why did i experience ego death in an Ayahuasca ceremony?

You probably experienced ego death in an Ayahuasca ceremony because your old self was not serving you any more for the direction that you are heading. However, in the end it is up to you to interpret your Ayahuasca ceremony.

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